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Wilbur arrives tonight! He trained then hitched from Wellington this afternoon. He'll get here around 10pm. So excited! Haven't seen him since January when he hitched around the North Island. YAY! In other news, greatly enjoyed having intellectual conversations with Tiho last night at Lauren's party! He's heading off to International Model UN in January! Exciting! Rang Rach Ross yesterday :) To ask her to buy my Carey textbooks then I'd compensate her. I'd met her at XRend, had a quick kinda 'hello, you're going to carey' conversation then. But we ended up talking awesome and deep and stuff yesterday for almost two hours! She made me excited about Auckland - because sometimes I am scared. She said there is this awesome little alternative club called Cassette where they pour drinks out of teapots :) I am excited. I am going to blog once a day next year with something knew I like about Auckland. I think this will be good. Last night I biked home from Laurens at 12.30 am. Took me half an hour 'cause I stopped to talk to some people I knew that I saw. People were like "ooh thats so dangerous" but not at all. It was beautiful and fresh and empty deserted streets and I wore my new retro sweatshirt from the opshop and it was awesome. Yay Wilburs coming! YAYYAYAYAYYAYAY!

I confess

I don't like Christmas. I must be a freak. It's just the gift giving pressure and the hype it's not like I need Christmas to think about Jesus. I think about him quite a lot. I don't own a bed! I have a very spacious room. I'm all fidgety. I need to travel.

On The Town

Well last night/12am until 3am this morning, I went to 'town' for the first time. Some think it is sad that I have been 18 since August and didn't go 'til last night, but I'm not bothered. Town, especially Havelock North town, is very overrated. There are three bars young people congregate in: Loading Ramp, which is more the 21upwards age bracket, Diva Bar and Bistro, which has a tiny dance floor and crap music: Ben said the 'cougars' congregate there (older(21upwards) women looking for younger men)We spotted a few. The whole bar seems to be taken up with the bar.. I think they're focussed on fancy drinks. Last is Turks, the bar full of 18-22ish aged people, some probably underage. That was a hot sweaty crammed bar and dance floor, with Finn DJing. I, nor any human being I know, cannot stand Finn. I had four years of classes with him and his sleazy arrogance, until he left school last year. RELIEF. Bouncers are very strict! There were also police swarming through Turks, six in a row, randomly checking IDs. Thomas was checked by two policemen within five minutes. A bouncer standing near the toilets asked for my ID as well. I honestly don't understand how people get in underage, they scrutinised my REAL ID enough, asking me if I had a bank card or something to back me up. I knew this would happen, because in my ID I am 15 years old, dark dark hair boy cut hair with a very sullen face! And now I am smiling, medium brown short/medium length feminine hair with fringe and a big "Sonya smile." And the old drivers license photos are tiny. But the bouncers were also really friendly. I enjoyed myself near the end, when Ben Christensen, Shani, Emma and I danced random in a relatively spacious part of Turks. It was cool having nice Ben there, when you're surrounded by drunk guys. But at the start I was just like BROOOO SLEAZY STRANGERS! And there was. Saskia was hammered and Ben and I were trying to hold her up as she almost fell(while she resisted) and this random guy started pointing at her/himself/outside. NO. It was like guys go to 'spot the drunk girl' and take advantage. And they do. I had one drink the whole night out: You have to be careful in such situations. :) The funniest/oddest part of the whole night was when I saw Abbie outside Turks(seriously, so many KHS Year 13s in town) and she hugged me and goes "WHERES MY ID??" She hugged me and it was in her hand and then it disappeared. And she's looking everywhere and accusing young-ish girls around her of picking it up. So the whole night she's worried. Her Full License disappeared. Then.. 3.30am.. i'm changing into my pyjamas and what falls out of my bra? She had hugged me and it had obviously fallen down the back of my dress and got lodged in my bra clip! LOL. It was actually hilarious at the time. I was really relieved that I had it and not some random on the dance floor or whatever. And relieved it didn't fall out! Ten-ish of us slept at Courtneys last night: woke up today and realised I had no way of getting home (everyone had pretty much left) so Ben came and picked me up and we randomly hung at SCHOOL (yeah, so I thought we'd finished :) in the music room and watched youtube videos for a couple of hours. Saw Taylor's film which was swweet, and 21 accents ( a funny awesome video, search it) and Boxing, which is a video Bjorn and other Year 13s made last year in Media Studies of him inside a big washing machine box at school and randomly jumping as students walked past and scaring them. GREAT. Other highlights: Gerard and I dressing as reindeer at 6pm last night then dancing crazy 'til 12 at Courtney's 18th birthday. Was so much fun, and there are some awesome photos! Our leavers jerseys say KNOWLEDGE IS STENGTH. Ironic. I had a really cool phone conversation with Wilbur this afternoon mainly about religion type stuff. He also went to town last night, in Wellington, and his seventeen-year-old self got into every bar (minus one, for his shoes) without an ID. He does it by putting on a German accent and pretty much trying to intice the bouncers to let him in, by inquiring what the bar is like until the bouncers push him in saying "check it out yourself mate!" He wants me to hitch to Wellington with him this weekend, and to busk POETRY in Cuba Street. Now I call that SCARY. But I think I should do it sometime. But I think he's gonna hitch up here instead. Tomorrow is the Youth Council break-up dinner at Lonestar in Napier. :) I didn't spend a cent last night.

Therefore do not worry about your life

says Jesus in Luke 12:22-34. It is my full time job to find a full time job. Today I am writing/fixing my CV and Covering Letter. Tomorrow I will go to the library, photocopy each about 40 times, along with my AWESOME RushMunro's job reference. Then I will go to Work and Income, register as "looking for work" and meet with a job broker. They have connections. Then I will walk around every single darn shop in town and give them my CV. I will be dressed smartly. I will then bus to Taradale and do the same thing. Tomorrow I will photocopy my 2010 college fees invoice, post it to ZONTA, along with a nice covering letter and hopefully they will pay 2000 dollars to Carey. Thank you ZONTA. I WILL GET A FULL-TIME JOB.

Things I don't like

Food intolerance.

Things that are sick

Nazi symbols and KKK tattoos. I cannot stand racism. Hatred makes me sick. Makes me sad. Seeing that profile picture made me sad sad sad for the sheer ignorance and intolerance. I love humans. But some of humanity is very very sad.

I'm smiling

Apart from an amazing prizegiving I also happened to come home at 1.10am to three awesome emails: a) Ashley Rae, awesome to read ;'cause its like interesting and getting to know someone and those emails are always fun. b) Finn saying he liked my country song and is putting it to music/we're working on a project. We've even got a name. c)Luke with FEEDBACK ON GUTTER VIEW! Yeah. and also d) a poem from Luke for feedback. I love his work. So, prizegiving. Everyone was like TOWN AFTER? but I have two dollars in my bank account and plus I'm kinda tiired and its 12km from my house plus I'm going to 'town' for the first time really next weekend. Best prizegiving yet. For me. The whole night was quite tense 'cause sometimes it was hard to hear so you're like crap did they say my name and then there was emotional minutes of silence for Mr. Dark and an impromptu haka and the awful moments when they say YEAR 13 and we are all going ohmygosh ohmygosh and then Gerard and I are like BET we'll get called up together we should fully skip down the aisle and link arms but of course we DIDN'T but we walked REALLY quickly and we were both STOKED. So, my prizes. For those who care 'cause some have asked to be told. Cultural awards section: KHS Cup for Best Senior Debater and Allen Cup for Senior Writing. Honours Medals Section (doing well in NZ): Silver Honours Medal for Debating and Silver Honours Medal for Writing 2007-2009 (Gold honours medals are for like going overseas and representing NZ, was SO PROUD OF ALEX FOR her gold medal for debating ) Random Prize: Books and Certificate for Deputy Head Girl (They put the sticker thing for it in 1984. I liked this. Outstanding Academic Section (Top six people in form): First and Distinction in English, Distinction in History (Gerard got first) Distinction in Media Studies (Ben got first) and Distinction in Geography (no one got first, three of us were tied: Abbie and me and Jesse) and then the U-Bix(?) Cup for First in Year 13 Humanities. (The one I wanted) So my best year ever :) Never got honours medals before. It was a real cool night but real weird 'cause so many people WEREN'T THERE. Two and a half rows of Year 13s. Maybe 25 of us in total, including sports prizes. It felt weirdly elitist. Not..right. Would have been nice if all of the Year 13s could have got their leavers scrolls at prizegiving, like old years. I THOUGHT THERE WAS NO MORE UNIFORM. THEN I GET TOLD I HAVE TO DO A SPEECH AT JUNIOR PRIZEGIVING. But what if i get a job and be working that day? Damn. I was so proud of so many people. I'm so HAPPY that the Dark and Rodler family were there to present the Memorial Cup and I'm so HAPPY that Thomas got Proxime and that Karla got that scholarship and I'm SO HAPPY that Shani got those two cups and her Speech diploma awarded in front of everyone and I'm so STOKED that Gerard got recognition for history. Of course there is stuff you go hmm about, like no other leaders getting recognition beyond the four head students? and other stuff. Did you know the prize for first in year 12 math is an ARTWORK PRINT? I'm glad they have introduced the Academic Excellence and General Excellence award for every year. Anyway. I got the three cups I wanted, but didn't necessarily think I'd get, so that was nice. Lots of teacher hugs. I really like seeing younger students get the cups I once got and I really like looking at the names on the cups you receive, thinking about legacy, and where they are now, and how they are successful and smart, and you think.. well, its encouraging. Like Shani getting the cup for Co-Curricular Drama and seeing a famous broadcaster person on it and knowing she is following in his footsteps next year as she heads off to broadcasting school. I have to go to school tomorrow. Sheesh, when does this end. I'm trying to find a JOB SCHOOL. You know, MONEY FOR MY FUTURE. Stop getting me to COME BACK. Yay cowboy song!

I like life

I wrote a COWBOY SONG because Finn Teppett asked me to. I enjoyed writing said cowboy song. I am going apple job hunting with Joel on Monday. I probably haven't seen him in over a year, which is awful. My only hope is we don't get caught by a cop 'cause that is a 400 dollar fine which is over a weeks worth of work. He is now officially sponsored by KINGPIN and of course Daylight Skateboards. Joel is amazing. We have had some good times skateboarding. Wellington College has a Tractor Club. I like. Prizegiving tomorrow. I'm actually looking forward to it. Whatever happens I come out with SIX BOOKS I really want to read. I think I am the only female getting an Outstanding Academic Award in Year 13. That's a first. I hate processed meat. Sausages. Bler. And the parents cook so much of it 'cause its good and cheap but its full of nitrites and is bad and sometimes gives me headaches. I am hungry. Ash turned up at ten tonight. In the pouring rain with his umbrella. I gave him milo and we talked about the 'I have to leave home' feeling.

A warm July day + Casabella Lane