I HATE THIS ESSAY

JUST END. PLEASE.

just got a phone call

I have been nominated for the New Zealand Young Woman of Potential Award. Crazy. Today I acquired sixty dollars, after praying desperately to God the other night for finance. I am learning to radically depend on this God who knows everything I need.

Beauty on Muriwai Beach

Spot the Sonya. My flatmate and I randomly decided to go to Muriwai Beach tonight, to take pictures of the sunset. We missed it, but it was beautiful anyway. I love how all the colours merged into one. It was so dark and everything was a different shade of grey. Dark dark dark. Nothing clear, just shapes, forms, colours. The water - black and foamy. Black sand. Cold. It is on the beach I feel near to God.

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I was so sure I was over you. But you're still the only thing I can write about.

Peace

I am.. becoming aware of the need for silence the need to be silent more than to speak to detach the issue from the personal to live more at peace by saying less and being still when all is intense, to find INNER peace and to not jump to say my own opinion I think I am growing up If these are the only things I will learn this year (they won't, I'm sure there will be more) I would still be more than happy with what I got out of my $4500 fees.

This is me :)

I've looked at love from both sides now From give and take, and still somehow It's love's illusions I recall I really don't know love at all - Joni Mitchell, Both Sides Now But that's good! And okay!

Jesus would have been a hippie

I was sitting in the mall on Saturday, and I couldn't buy anything. Jesus has been challenging me. Here is a fantastic article on freeganism and dumpster diving.

Alone Down There - Modest Mouse

How do, how do you do? My name is you Flies, they all gather around me and you too You can't see anything well You ask me what size it is, not what I sell The flies, they all gather around me and you too I don't want you to be alone down there To be alone down there, to be alone The Devil's apprentice he gave me some credit He fed me a line and I'll probably regret it I don't want you to be alone down there To be alone down there, to be alone Ah. I don't want you to be alone down there To be alone down there, to be alone

I love Smashproof.

South Auckland honest hiphop How do you put the actual video in the blog? Ordinary Life Brother Heart.

Dear, (middle aged) Man

Please explain, with detailed examples and analysis, what gives you the right as you sit in your car at the Onehunga Mall roundabout, to turn, smile and look me in the eyes and say "Nice butt," with a smirk on your lips and an unmentioned power in your eyes? I am still waiting for an answer. Plus, I was wearing trackpants.

Auckland #5 Dailybooth & COOKING

I dailybooth most days. Its like a mini blog with a "try to be creative" webcam shot. Comment below if you have a dailybooth, I'd love to follow you! I'M LOVING COOKING MEAN VEGETARIAN DINNERS.

Auckland # 4

Auckland #3: Make new friends but keep the old, for one is silver, the other gold

I haven't really thought much about people I have left. But today I came home from Carey, just so so tired. And when you're tired, you question. I lay on my bed and held my snowglobe. My snowglobe with pictures of Gerard and Lucy dressed up as reindeers holding silly signs. And I just thought Man. How good it would be to have Gerard to talk to right now. You know. Like when I am forming these new amazing friendships with people, I just think, aaah an old friend who understands and knows me really well, how nice would that be right now. And to hear Gerard's Subway stories, or his views on political issues or current affairs, or just to talk about anything, whether trivial or deep. I enjoy his company, no matter what the occasion. It is a friendship that been consistent. At school especially, he was the one person I could count on to talk intellectual/deep, when I needed or wanted that. And I know he liked that about our friendship as well. I love and treasure the new friendships I am making in Auckland, in Intermission and the like, but tonight my old friend Gerard was on my mind. I'm not going to forget him. Don't forget your friends. NOTE: It would only let me put the photos at the top. Any help with this? It hasn't done that before.