I am feeling strange this evening.

I am feeling strange. I did not go to the 19th birthday party of a friend I have known since I was six. We were best friends 'til high school. She is wonderful. But I was just feeling.. odd. Like I couldn't find clothes or something. Which is not me. I'm not that shallow, nor self conscious. I wear any clothes, normally. But it was like I couldn't find the energy. So weird. I don't like that. Tonight I made the most delicious vegetarian lasagne in the whole wide world.