Babies

This week I know of three people my age who have just had babies. Girls I went to school with. And.. it feels odd.. like I feel younger than them! Motherhood is an adult thing.. am I an adult? I feel like an adult.. but parenting is a whole different level of adult.. But no way am I keen for that at eighteen! I don't know what I am trying to say. I am not trying to say anything. I am just firing thoughts around my head - I feel like children are a late20s thing. Oh that is such a cultural influence thing - 'educated' career women say stuff like that - but its true.. I have to do other things before I even ponder children. I do like children. But not like OHMYGOSH I have to have kids! *enter clucky female noises* It's not like that. More, like, yeah, I like children. They could be part of my life. I'd just have a few children, not a lot of children. But I'm eighteen! I am still young. I do feel awkward when I see a girl I went to school with in the street - she has a three year old daughter, and I remember when we were fourteen, in Food Tech class - she being upset 'cause she thought she was pregnant, and telling me. We chat, but its such different worlds! And I am proud of her and tell her so when she tells me that she has gone back to school at a Teen Parent Unit and she is working hard to get Level 1 (!) and maybe 2 so she can have a future. That is cool. But I find it so hard to understand. And and and yeah I'm ending this post here. Good on the girls who had babies. Love them. Raise them well. I still feel.. strange. Their kids will be like ten when I might possibly be starting to think of having babies. What are all your thoughts on all of this?