1. My computer is dying. Constant spazz attacks, error messages and refusals to turn on are driving me mad.This is more than a slight problem. If it dies for good I will be more than mildly screwed. I have four weeks left of semester. This problem is heightened due to college's bad computers which don't even have Microsoft Word.
2. I am behind on multiple assignments. (See above) I had two due last week which I have not done. I should never blame my lecturers but it would help if they cared more about deadlines. I say the assignments were due, but my grades are not affected if they are late. This is bad for me because I am a future-minded person who constantly analyses history and how it will impact the future. I can see the last few weeks being madness.
3. My funds are going down. And down. If we wanted to be technical about it, I am in debt, but because we are not being technical, I am just worried. This is also a problem due to problem one. If computer dies I have no money to replace it.
4. My room is a tip. This is more of a problem than the rest because it impedes my mental state. Severely. If we wanted to be anal we would explain this by using the enneagram. I am a 7 (optimist) When under stress I become a 1 (super perfectionist) and when healthy I become more of a five (Thinker) I sit on the floor of my bedroom and just freak out. Because I would want to clean every part of it, from all the books, to my filing folders of important documents, to my make-up. I am not normally this bad but when under stress it drives me crazy. Most of today I just wandered around like a zombie feeling overwhelmed by my bedroom.
Today I put on full make-up under the guise that this would motivate me to be productive. Instead I found myself drinking green tea and lying on my bedroom floor swearing to myself.
Am I crazy? Arg. Arg. Arg. This computer is sooooo slow. One tab at a time.
GOOD THINGS.
1. I skyped ALEX FELT last night and as usual we talked feminist feminist feminist. SKYPE worked. Kind of. Kept crashing but I could call.
2. I'm getting feet things. Orthotics? Yeah them.
3. I must be mad because I called my parents but forgot to tell them
a)I have dyed my hair (almost) black and
b)have enrolled in a law degree.
These things must be unimportant.
Oh girl.
Come on now.
Get it together.
Really I just want to learn to drive! I like driving! Arg. Arg. Arg.
well... you have had a full day. part of what you're going through resonates with me because I have been in your situation. currently I think you are being sort of hard on yourself though. there are some things you can't control and some things you can be proactive about. you could probably find someone (geek?) on campus near the computer lab who might be able to help you or at least try and diagnose your computer problem. I don't know what a tip is so I can't comment on that. google voice may allow you to make phone calls for free but seeing as you just said you had computer problems. I apologize for mentioning it. I apologize for not having more useful information I wish I could be more helpful. -Nex
ReplyDeleteNex, you are a gentleman.
ReplyDeleteI have mentioned Google Voice, it works. Well.
ReplyDeleteI could probably fix your computer, if you were desperate.
I'm very keen to Skype. I miss you, friend :)
For some reason, the idea of make-up has always bothered me. So pastel.